MAN WAS MY GOD

Truly, God knows how to deliver in full. He can deliver in such a way that our complete desire for a former sinful indulgence no longer has appeal. We can become so completely in love with God, that habitual sin does not grip us as before. Yes, we will still sin because we are in the flesh. But God can deliver us from strongholds. He does deliverance as He deems fit. Sometimes it is a prolonged process – other times it is not. It is His prerogative as to the how, and all which that involves.

To have the intimate presence of a man in my life was once my god. My belief was that I needed a man to validate my value, and worth as a woman. My low self esteem ensnared me into the position of making a god out of man. Oh, for sure, there were some pleasurable” moments - that was part of the deception. The Devil cannot “rule” if he supplies all that is “bad.” He furnishes some “pleasures” in his mission to keep us estranged from God. He is cunning, conniving and highly intelligent. He should not be underestimated. His aim is to deceive us all the way to hell.

God has the most high-powered agenda. Our Lord is fully aware of every action, misdeed, and intent of the Devil. God knows what the Devil is going to do before the Devil knows it. The Devil is mighty but he knows far, far less than our Almighty Father God. The knowledge and wisdom of God trumps every bit of might that the Devil possesses.

So while I was out there with man as my god, the only Wise God was observing all of my stupidity, and foolishness. Satan was celebrating while God was grieving about my unrighteous choices. God brought the Devil’s celebration to a halt. God allowed circumstances which brought me to my knees in tears, and true repentance. Hallelujah, I was back under the dominion of the King of saints!

Thanks be unto God for His love, mercy and forgiveness. It was made unmistakably clear to me through much heartache, and pain that I was in love with the wrong god. Man was an imitation of life – God is the real deal! My existence with the god-man was a lie, a scheme concocted by Satan to remove me from the God who is greater than all - the only God who is worthy to be my FIRST LOVE. If we deviate from that crucial path, we are in position to be destroyed by the Devil.

When we align ourselves with the enemy of our souls, and his evil forces, we reap what we sow. God will not force us to choose life – which can only be attained through devotion to God. If we elect death - which is allegiance to the Devil – we reap separation from God, and have an existence without peace - that only God can provide. The word of God says, “There is no peace, saith my God, to the wicked.” (Isaiah 57: 21)

God in His loving kindness proved to me that only He is able to give me the utmost love, joy, and fulfillment that I craved. He more than satisfies me with His love, care, and concern. I am fully convinced that God knows best. God may decide to send me a man. My desire is that God’s perfect will be done. Whatever He decides – I am grounded in the truth that God alone is my God.

I sought to fill the void in my heart with the superficial injection of a temporal fix. The Lord filled that void with the eternal fix of the confidence that only the true and living God can provide absolute certainty of who we are, and the precious value that He places on our lives. My self esteem is invested in righteousness. Now, I truly know whose I am, and that allows me to know who I am - in the Lord. My validation comes from God - the Most High!!!

While I still have much to learn, I am thrilled beyond compare that God abides in me, and I in Him. Words are inadequate to explain the elation experienced by souls that are anchored in God.

Though transformation is a process… deliverance is oh so liberating!

Written September 18, 2008
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